Photos by Sarah Knuth Photography
Happy Friday y’all! Woke up to a beautiful fall morning with the windows open here in Indy and it was just cool enough to turn on the fireplace! Loved having my coffee and devotions by the fire. I hadn’t planned to do this post until later in the fall but just came to the front of my heart after my devotion so here it is, our wedding style and journey. I have been deciding which pictures out of the many we got from our talented photographer that will be framed for our gallery wall and it was so hard to narrow down! It’s amazing to think back to everything we’ve gone thru that led me to this day. And not just the planning. But each of our lives before we were a couple. Zac and I are not only from different worlds in terms of how we grew up but he’s a philosopher while I’m a romantic. God played such a hand in teaching us lessons before we knew each other that would help us understand each other’s hearts. First let’s discuss the dress! I chose this BHLDN wedding dress for its vintage retro lace vibe and beautiful train. I didn’t even have to alter it which was amazing! The beaded headpiece is also from BHLDN. My shoes were Badgley Mishka, one of my favorite designers. We put Zac in Tommy Hilfiger. He has this all american vibe that suits Zac perfectly. The suspenders were my favorite part! Now to the story of our wedding. I’ve always wanted a small intimate brunch affair and our wedding was 50 people at RL Wilson house in Noblesville. I loved the details of planning the brunch. They did a great job! It was the family details of the wedding that were tuff. Because of my fostercare background, there were moments I chose not to have at my wedding. We kept it around three hours and then headed off to a little weekend getaway. As excited I was to marry Zac, it took all my bravery to not show the emotion of some of the hard parts that day. I had some members of my foster family there which I was so thankful for. It didn’t work out to have my siblings there and it wasn’t their fault, just how life was going. We got married on a Sunday which can be difficult. They all have multiple kids and travel and schedules can be so tuff. I love them dearly and they cheered me on as much as they could from afar. My biological parents weren’t there and obviously that was my own choice but I still thought about them. I think any bride would. I had Jesus walk me down the aisle. And as much as it was my choice to do as well, being that brave wasn’t easy. At one point in the planning I wanted to elope but I’m glad we ended up doing what we did. There were just moments in the planning where wedding tradition didn’t fit my life and I didn’t know how to emotionally handle that. I didn’t want a reason to be angry with God but there were some moments when I did get angry and I was so honest with God about that crying and just having Zac hug on me. God appreciates our real feelings and as a Christian it’s important to express those. Zac was my biggest rock thru it. My saving grace were having my girlfriends there. I am so thankful for them! They threw me the cutest dinner party that Friday and then Saturday I enjoyed a champagne brunch celebration as well as manis and pedis. My girlfriends and the women from Zac’s family were there and it was so fun! That night we just did a happy hour at a winery so everyone could socialize and meet. We kept that short and gave everyone the freedom to enjoy Indy on their own after. My other saving grace on our wedding day was our photographer, Sarah Knuth! I met Sarah shooting a few years back with her in Indy and she just got what I needed that day. She kept me busy and almost in a bubble of focus of just having beautiful pictures celebrating Zac and me. She will never know how appreciative I am for her. There was no pressure to have traditional wedding moments captured that didn’t fit my life. While she didn’t know my whole fostercare background, she was so respectful to my heart that day. I just adore her and highly recommend her for weddings! As I look back at it now, I feel blessed that even though my upbringing didnt allow for some traditions that all girls deserve, God placed wonderful people in my life during that time that provided human strength. I have a very traditional in law family that I’m learning to grow with in my own way every day. I have a husband who at my worst, can always relax me and let me be raw in emotion around him. And I have amazing girlfriends that continue to cheer me on. I also have these beautiful images to frame. I’m also going to do a coffee table book with more images of the location and others. I wanted to share all this to tell all future brides to follow your own heart during wedding planning. Don’t be afraid to nix something if your heart can’t handle it. And lean on God.
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